so, i pretty much fail at updating on here.
i actually forgot about it, but who cares.
i wanted to write about each day, buuuuuut that didn't happen.
so whatever, let's try this again.

i'm getting my hair cut today.
i wanted to do something new and different, but i'll probably just get a trim, fix my bangs, and maybe thin it out a little.
my hair bugs me a lot, but i used to HATE it. now i just deal with it and it's not awful i guess.
i'm starting to allow myself to like my flaws.
i have so many. you always bring them out and critize me for them, but i don't care anymore. that's me, take it or leave it. literally.
flaws make a person beautiful. it's what makes them who they are.
maybe one day you'll get that, but i know that day's not today, or tomorrow, or anytime where i'm actually envolved in your life.

"may the best of your todays be the worst of your tomorrows"

two.

I had the weirdest dream last night...for real. But it's one of those dreams you remember in your subconcious but aren't able to verbally repeat it. I'm working today, which isn't such a big deal except for the fact that I'm just not in the mood. I got a raise yesteday and was pretty happy about that. It's about time though, because I'm pretty sure I've been working there for four years. I can't complain though.
Sometimes I feel selfish for complaining about things, small things that probably don't mean anything to anyone but me. I really have been tying to be selfless the past week, if that's even possible to do.
It was actually the weirdest week in that sense..I wasn't myself this week. I went around trying to please others so much, trying to be up to others standards..this week needs to be different.
I really hope it is.

"hearts were never ment to race"

one.

so, i'm going to try and write on this at least once a day.
this is just somewhere to get my thoughts and feelings out, because i have a lot of them, and i'm never great at expressing them.
i just feel that after awhile, someone needs to have somewhere where they can vent about life, rant, whatever.
i want to see if i can stick with this, writting at least every day.
if someone doesn't like what i'm saying, by all means, i'm sure facebook is just a click away.
also, i'm going to try and put quotes on here, just because that's my thing.
i just realized i wrote this whole paragraph as if someones actually going to be reading this blog, but hey, that's okay.

you don't always have to hold your head higher than your heart